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I have all these little, inner battles and struggles that, from an outwardly perspective, would probably deem me insane. So I won’t divulge too much as per the norm of things around here. However, I often feel like specific people at specific times fuck me with me, but sometimes not consciously, if that makes sense?

I know deep down that it is never how a portion of my mind is choosing to make me feel towards a moment, but the burdens I bare always love to fuel the little fires even further. More often than not, it’s always nothing. I might even consider these being little tests to reaffirm a belief in myself. This belief that under any circumstances, even all the time in the world permitting, I always get what I want and things go my way, even if eventually. Knowing this and having this self-confidence for so long, wouldn’t it be obvious to assume that I’d never need to worry or fret over stupid, little things? I’d like that assumption but yet here I am, once again letting a divide in my mind conquer my process of rational thoughts.

lol, right? It’s fine, everything is great, nothing too terrible looms in the distance for 2018. Nothing I can’t handle, that is. For real, 2018 is already easier than 2017 just because I am in full control,once again of all facets of my life. Never break. Never sweat. I got some obsessions, it’s true. I got some issues, yep! I neglect to deal with the majority of them in due fashion, but I always make it work. Just look at me TODAY vs me 10 years ago. Did I change? I thought I don’t believe in change? Change in attitude? …

I feel better already, this free flow of writing/ranting to whoever, anybody, and nobody. I used to do this more often. I used to do a lot of things. I used to have an audience based on love. If you know what I mean?

Those little things, they always get to me. They bug me, irritate me and make me think irrationally. However, I then remind myself quickly of little achievements or conquests, if you will, and I am put back into my daily 24/7 trance of carelessness and selfishness that, really, just bring me back down to earth where I believe I do what I do better than anyone else alive, period. You LOVE me! I always win. Don’t forget!

Whip Whip 2018 can’t stop me, not even worth my efforts.

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How to escape a comfort zone.

Do or feel something uncomfortable both physically and emotionally daily. I love to insert myself into an oncoming or unexpected uncomfortable moment or exchange. Most times, these can be avoided and sometimes are best to; however, they also may prove to be ultimately rewarding so don’t hesitate at the thought of feeling a little uneasy.

Obviously, the more comfortable we get in our day to day lives, the less impact we will make and receive. The worst points in my life were absolutely when things were too easy. Sure, there are always good moments in any day, this can’t be avoided if you are a glass is half full kind of guy like I am forever to be, however that doesn’t make up for the majority of the time spent in “easy-mode”, most of which wasted, unfortunately. Wasted time when you have 24 hours in a day and can usually function well on 4-5 hours of sleep a night, is inexcusable and disappointing. That said, of course it’s not bad to be on a cruise-control comfort zone and let life pass you by a little, some people (myself included) need that at least once in their lives.

You must at least try to not to fall too hard into it and try some new things, meet some new people… I know, I know… aged old sage shit-tier advice, but it’s still relatable today! Enjoy your life, enjoy it more uncomfortably! Take a chance, trip a little when you take that first step.

Whip Whip, still can’t stop it…

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